Summer Project Update #2

So, a lot has happened between now and the last time you've heard from me. A lot of bad, some good. Last Sunday we went to the church we were assigned to. It's called Faith Community Church and is a very very small church that probably at best has a congregation of 40. It also has no air condition so when we went for the first time on the hottest day so far, it wasn't much fun. But the people are very loving and it's a really comforting environment to be in. They are even throwing us a cook out tomorrow afternoon. Also, every other week Crusade does worship for the church and I am the worship coordinator for it, so that's pretty cool, I guess I will get to sing after all. On Monday it was day one of working and let's just say it's pretty tough. I was outside working in the parking lot for 5.5 hours before I had a break and was pretty upset about it. But my boss, Jeff, is amazing and really looks out for me and is always asking me how I'm doing and will also sit with me on my breaks to let me talk and vent about stuff. He's fun to because he keeps betting all of us and we all keep losing so we buy him coffee like all the time. The job is hard and frustrating. Three of our members got promoted like right away to a supervisor position and I think that is just really hard for me to handle because they really didn't do anything more than anyone else and I feel now I can't see them as a friend. But it's alright, I didn't come here to have the perfect job. Monday night was kind of when things took a bad turn. Some of you may have received a text message from me about a teammate who was missing. His name was Jackson and he was one of the guys who went to the ER last week. Jackson still wasn't completely feeling well so he stayed at the house while we all went to our weekly meeting (why he was left alone I'm still not sure). When we returned later that night the house was unlocked and Jackson was missing. His stuff was still out in the house so I believe that he probably left in a hurry. Right away I had a feeling that something was wrong so me and two other friends went out looking for him. About half an hour later we found out that a search party had been issued and all students and staff were spread out on the beach looking for Jackson. That's when I knew things were getting serious and searched more desperately. We finally got a call at almost midnight that Jackson had been found. We found out that he had some mental problems that he didn't tell the staff prior to coming to project and that he has manic depression and one of the results from this problem for him in the past was alcohol. He went to a rehab back in the fall for it but his parents thought he was better and had high hopes for him this summer. He was found drunk and I think that someone had probably gone to the house and he went with them. I don't know for sure but all I know was that this really really made me upset and I have a lot of unanswered questions about it. His dad came home to get him and now he's back in Oklahoma. So please just pray for him, he's a great guy and I'm really sad I wasn't able to get to know him more.
The rest of the week has been ok. We met with our different teams throughout the week and continued to work. I've had some great conversations with people and they've helped me get through this whole Jackson thing. On Thursday night though, we had another big change. Jonathon Welch, who most of you may know, decided to go home, it just wasn't meant for him to be here. I knew this was coming because he told me but it was still hard for the guys he was discipling. Later that night we had women's time and it was amazing. We talked about emotions and how it's ok to have them. This was big for me because I base a lot of what I do on my feelings, it was nice to know I'm not the only one who feels and thinks certain ways. Today (Saturday) we did a staff scavenger hunt and that was incredibly fun yet stressful. I'm still struggling with finding my role on the community team but I'm sure God will show me what it is.
That's it for now. Sorry for it being so lengthy.
Prayer Requests:
Please pray for the health of myself (I've been sick for about a week) and the others here.
Pray that the jobs we are working at provide opportunities for us to have spiritual conversations.
Pray for Jackson and his family as he struggles with this situation and that I can still be a friend to him if he needs.

Summer Project Update 1

So as of right now I have been in Hampton Beach, New Hampshire for about 5-6 days. I took three different airplanes starting at 7am and ending at around 3pm. I was exhausted by the end of the day and it didn't help that when I landed in Manchester, my luggage didn't. But because I was waiting for another girl to arrive, I was there when my luggage did arrive on a later flight from Philadelphia. Me and the other girl, Angela (also from California) arrived at the White Gull (the house we are staying at) at about 6:30 to see everyone had already arrived. It was kind of fun though because as soon as the shuttle stopped, a whole group of guys came out of no where, opened the doors and took our luggage out and up to our rooms! That's a service I could get use to! That night we ate together and got to know names (which I finally have all the names down!) of the 55 other students and 23 staff leaders. Then we separated men and women. I heard rumor the men had to go jump into the freezing cold water at the beach, while we women had a somewhat woman iniation thing. The next day we went out job hunting where I quickly got hired at Happy Hampton Arcade starting out at $9 an hour which is more than I got at Barnes & Noble so I was very excited! It was also a relief knowing I had a job while even now some of my fellow housemates are still scrambling to find jobs. But we've been doing a lot of orientation stuff this first week so it's been nice to have time to relax and get situated. It's fun too because most people here are from the east coast (i'm one of 3 from California) and so there are a lot of fun accents here and sometimes I start talking like them by habit, so when I come back and I talk with an accent, don't make fun! We got assigned to certain servant teams and I was chosen for the community team. I tried to get away from community as that is what I help lead back at school and so I didn't put it my first choice, I'd of rather had weekly meeting or outreach, but I seem to keep getting called to community and we have a great team so I'm excited to see where it takes me! I hope I just don't get sick of community that I can't come back and do an effective job back at Fullerton.

Yesterday (June 6th) we went to Boston to do a scavenger hunt and to share so that was a really cool experience. I am in love with the city of Boston!!! There is so much history there that it was really cool to be in the same spots as our founding fathers. Also, two guys from our guys brought one guy to Christ so praise God for that! First week here and we're already making our presense known and doing some amazing stuff! Also in Boston, we came across the Campus Crusade for Christ International Headquarters for the North East region so it was cool to see what all goes in to running Crusade. So that is pretty much for now, I turn 20 years old today and I was nervous I'd be sad and alone on my birthday but instead I've been surrounded by love. Just about all the girls on project burst through my room at midnight with balloons and a banner and my roommates are making me a cake. We also have a free day today so that's nice to. So to wrap up, I'm having a fabulous time and I thank you all for your constant support. For some prayer requests, I ask that you pray for the health of my housemates, already 2 people have been to the ER, I ask that you pray for humble hearts as we begin doing God's work here, I ask for prayer for those who still do not have jobs, and then just for prayer that I earn all my support (I still need about $500). I'm so blessed to be here and I can't wait to see all the God has planned!

She is running, a hundred miles an hour, in the worng direction.

I absolutely love this song (Does Anybody Hear Her- Casting Crowns). It really puts reality into perspective. How often do we go to church and see some one different from us or someone we don't want to socialize with so we do what we can to sit far away from them. We put up these barriers and we use them as security as to not get to know others, as to not break the conformity of it all. But are not we called to welcome in those we don't know. To love our neighbor as ourselves. Why must all our actions be based on judgements? Even in a church. Especially in a church. We all fall victim to it but yet we don't do much to change. I guess all it really takes is one person though, one person to stretch out a hand of mercy and welcome those who have felt lost and abandoned. It only starts with one. I want to be that one. Do you?


'Judgement looms under every steeple. With lofty glances from lofty people. We can't see past her scarlet letter, and we've never even met her."

I am head over heels in love with

Power Steering <3

Seriously, I never realized how much I loved it until it was gone. I took it for granted. I didn't appreciate it enough. And then one day, it was gone. Just like that. Ok so I did lose it about 4-5 months ago (wow this semester flew on by!) but I still miss it! It takes so much strength to turn my stupid car. Especially now that I have all my stuff in it.

The reason I bring this up is because for the second time, I drove Ryan to school today. Whenever I drive him to school I get to drive his cool mom mini van because he won't fit in my car comfortably otherwise. The best thing about the van is that it has power steering! It turns so easily, with just a slight turn of the wrist. It's amazing. I just wish I could just use his car the whole time he's hurt, or at least until I leave. Oh well, my dad said he'd fix my car while I was gone this summer.

As requested:

Ryan Update:

He's going slightly crazy having to have the halo brace on his head.

It's been 3 weeks since he's had it on.

He has 9 more weeks to go.

The doctor's thought he might be able to take it off after 6 weeks and wear a neck brace for the remaining 6 weeks but the doctors just told him that they would definitely not recommend that. He'll be fine though, he's kind of pessimisstic right now, I'm sure he would really appreciate some words of encouragement.

So it's official...

I am now homeless.
Last night was a challenge. I did not realize how much a whole bunch of little things can add up. I've filled my car up to capacity with bag after bag after bag of loose odds and ends. Then I cleaned some more turned in my keys and that was that.
Luckily for me I have some freaking amazing friends such as Amy Grace and Merrilee who have so graciously opened up their home to me. I feel bad though, I hate to impose on others. But as Candice pointed out to me, if they were in my position and I was in theirs, wouldn't I open up my home to them? Of course! So we'll see how it goes.

I have a bunch of papers to write now. I'd rather not do them but I desperately need to bring up my grades. I really, really wish I had a passion, drive, motivation for school. I really wish I could be the kind of student who goes straight home and does homework or studies early, writes papers ahead of time. But I just can't do it. I cannot make myself. Every semester I say I'll try a little harder, and I do, for like a month, and then my brain just shuts off. Who knows though, maybe when I move into the house, I'll make myself really organized, I'll make sure my computer desk is completely clean and that there is ink in the printer and I will give myself a study space that I so desperately need.

Two finals down (I survived!) three more to go! I can't wait until I'm done! This has been a rough semester...

I predict death before the age of 30.

Not for me. I'm going to live until I'm 400. But my dear friend Ryan, I swear he is going to die within the next 10 years. He always tells me not to worry about him. We argue over whether or not racing is the best thing in the world. Our arguments lead into fights, yet who is proven right? Me! I mean, of course I support him but there has to be a point where he just knows when to give it a break. Start racing only 3 weekends out of the month, then maybe twice a month. This last accident was just too unbearable for me to deal with. I spent the whole day after the accident having multiple panic attacks. What an awful feeling it is to not know if your best friend is ok.

For those who don't know:
Ryan was racing a few weeks ago and his bike hit a rock which threw him over the handlebars and he landed on his head. He was airlifted to a hospital in Bakersfield. I got a text Monday at about 1:45 in the morning telling me he was in the hospital. I texted him but his brother had his phone and telling me that he was having surgery that day. Ryan called me later that night telling me that he broke his neck and crushed his lower vertabrae. If he had crushed it any higher he would have died. He just found out the back of his brain is bruised which is why his vision is messed up (he's somewhat color blind). He also has to wear a halo neck brace which is this big metal thing that entraps his head and is screwed into his skull.

Seriously, he's always getting injured. I try to be supportive, really I do. Because I know how important racing is to him. But I'd love to see Ryan be able to live a long life free of injury and any other ailment. How can I stop worrying about him when he's always getting hurt. I love this kid to death and I don't know what I'd do without him. Blah. Why couldn't he be interested in something like badminton, that can be somewhat fun and a lot safer!

I have decided....

That I really hate moving.
Well maybe not so much the moving aspect of it as much as it is the packing. I'm too lazy to do it right. I mean I'd like to organize it accordingly so that when I move in somewhere new I can start out all organized, but that usually doesn't happen. I procrastinate so much (as I am doing now) and then end up either throwing a lot of things away (which isn't a bad thing) or I just throw it all in a box, mark it "random", tape it up, and go on with my merry way. I mean, my dad will be here in, I'm guessing, 4-5 hours and all i have packed is my books (which is actually like 5 boxes!), my movies, and my wall stuff. I still have two loads of laundry to do! Goodness! What am I doing with my life! I also have a whole book to read and two papers to write and a crap load of finals to study for! Oh well, story of my life.

On a sadder note.
I'm kind of sad to be leaving the Camdens. I mean I've lived here for 15 months! That's almost my whole "not-living-at-home" life! I've had some great times here. I've had 3 roommates come through here. I've had countless get togethers here. I've laughed, I've cried, I've yelled, I've rejoiced. This place holds a lot of memories and I'm going to be sad to see it go.


Quote of the Post:
"Do not pray for easy lives. pray to be stronger men."

I'm back...for how long, I'm not sure

I'm sorry I haven't written in a while. There's not so much time anymore as I'd hope there would be.

So we'll start with an update:
Last we left off it was last August. Since then I've changed my major (Religious Studies!), I've done A LOT with Crusade to the point of emotional break-down (yea, I know, it's bad), and had to cry to get a C in history. Yea, nothing too impressive but what can I say..that's how my life is. I still work at Barnes & Noble and tutoring at the school. It can be draining at times but you do what you have to do. I don't know how much longer I will be tutoring though, I lost the love for the job that I use to have for it. But I am working with Merrilee (well technically she works across the street from me but we still get to carpool) and that makes it a lot more enjoyable. Hmm lets see, we had Winter Conference again which was amazing! Again. I got to spend a lot of time with Ryan Kudla which was really good. I felt at a point he and I were drifting away but that week down there was good for us and we spent most of the time together, I think it saved our friendship, but shhh don't tell him I said that. What else, hmm, oh yea I got accepted to the summer project I wanted! So that is really exciting! I will be spending 10 weeks in Hampton Beach, NH! I'm excited but nervous, it is really hard to raise support, I thought the finacial support would come in easily but I didn't take in the fact that my family doesn't support me at all. But whatever, it's just the devil trying to interfere with God's plans for my life. Let's see, I was challenged to join the leadership team for Crusade this semester and I was thrilled and happily accepted. However, I think I jumped into things too fast. It was a hard transition but it really challenged me and strengthed me as a person. I was in charge of community stuff and it was kind of stressful because I kind of took it on by myself, but in the end I had a great team helping me out. I will probably do it again next semester but it's still up in the air. I'm not sure how things will work next semester because we have new staff leaders coming in. At first I was really sad about Brent and Lindsay leaving and LA Metro as a whole coming apart but now I'm excited and know this will be for the best.

Now for why I decided to write again (other than the fact the Ryan always pressures me to update!):

I'm halfway through my college experience! Holy crap! That's all I can say! I'm almost done with my second year of college, and because of my major change I only have 15 more classes to take. I can't believe that in another 2 years I will be a college graduate and having to face the world ahead of me. I don't know where I'm headed, I don't know what to do. God knows, I don't, but I trust He will lead me in the right direction. These last 2 years have seriously FLOWN by! I cannot believe where I am in life right now. I am a completely different person now than I was when I graduated high school. I like who I am, for the most part anyways. I owe a lot of that to Crusade. I honestly cannot even begin to imagine what my college life would have been like if I never wandered over to that one random table that one random day on the Titan Walk. What a blessing, that is for sure. I am freaked out that I am going to graduate relatively soon, but at the same time, I'm excited to see where these next two years will lead and what God has in store for me. It shall be exciting!


Love You Guys!!!



Quote of the Post:
"Watch your thoughts for they become your words. watch your words for they become your actions. watch your actions for they become your character. watch your character for it becomes your destiny."

R.I.C.E

Rest. Ice. Compression. Elevation.


for those of you who have played sports you may know what this may be applied to.


a sprained ankle.


yup. I sprayed my ankle.


I shouldn't be surprised. It was only a matter of time. Lately when I've been playing basketball I've been getting a little clumsy and losing my balance a lot. I thought maybe I was getting better at standing since I did stay upright most of the time. Of course, there is such a thing as too much of a good thing. My good thing was balance. I went kerplop last night while playing basketball. My ankle took a hard fall and yea..it was painful. Luckily I have amazing friends who were all very helpful. Today though kind of sucked. I woke up with my ankle hurting more than ever and I went to the Student Health Center and they just looked at it and sent me on my merry way after giving me an appointment. I hobbled from class to class (not fun). It was kind of fun doing the directing scene because me and my partner switched roles since her character was suppose to have a hurt ankle! I didn't have to act at all! But the bad part of the day was that I got a parking ticket for not getting back to my car in time. I was only 5 minutes late! It was so dumb. I was parked at the Health Center and I had to park as close as I could because I couldn't walk! It's not my fault the school is retarded and can't aid those in need. So I went to contest the ticket and I told them I thought they were lame. I eventually had to result in calling a police escort to drive me to the health center so I wouldn't die. After waiting for hours, and making a new friend also in my current predicament, I was X-rayed, bandaged up, put on crutches and sent home. Luckily for me, I had my good friend Tyler who was willing to drive and pick me up and take me to my car. Oof what an eventful day. At least I didn't have to work. I showed up and they sent me right back home....oh well!



Quote of the Post:
Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, your reputation is merely what people think you are and your character is who you really are.

1st Week of My Second Year of College

Holy smokes...I'm a sophomore in college! That's so crazy to me! It seems like I should still be wandering the campus lost and confused but instead I'm rockin it like a rock star! So the beginning of the week ended with me in an emotional breakdown, but what else is new. My classes are pretty chill for the most part and I feel I can do pretty well in them. I may get fired for all my schedule changes in what not, but I'm hoping for the best. School isn't really all that important to me as bad as that sounds. Sure I want to do well, and I will try my damnest to do so, but it's not the first thing on my mind. Right now, I am just so caught up in all the great things God is doing in my life and with Campus Crusade. Our first meeting of the year had over 100 people!!! It was crazy! I remember I was in the back room with the worship team praying and when we came out the Titan Theatre was packed! I was seriously in a state of awe, I had no idea what to do! It was crazy and amazing! DJ did a great job with the message too. Ahh I'm still so excited about Crusade! And our first Dorm Revival had more people than ever before! I believe at the end of the night the final tally was 30, which was amazing!!! Mark is a pretty solid speaker as well. After this great first week, I have high hopes for the rest of the semester and I cannot wait to see what else God presents to me! So I may not believe I'm actually in my second year of college, but I sure am ready to strut my stuff!!!



Quote of the post:

Far too many people are looking for the right person, instead of just trying to be the right person.

Summertime

So I usually don't like the summer. It's not that I enjoy school but I like the idea of having something productive to do. In the summer I feel as though I am just wasting time. But this summer was GREAT! The first half of it was non stop greatness. I temporarily ended my tutoring job which was sad but necessary, and my students even gave me a gift card to target...it was awesome =). Then I had my birthday and I finally turned the big 1-9. Last year of being a teenager! I went to go see Hairspray for my birthday (the Broadway one not the movie!) and it was absolutely the most amazing show I had ever seen. Breath-taking. Then I pretty much spent most of the summer in Fullerton where I just spent time with my AMAZING friends! Of course I had to get a job but it is ok, I like my new job. I currently work for Barnes & Noble in Fashion Island. It's a bit of a drive but it's alright, I like it down there. I have officially been there for 2 months now. Then summer school happend which sucked but it was ok because Ryan came back from Japan so I was able to text him the whole time. Which reminds me, I was finally able to catch a couple of Ryan's races and they were amazing and super fun! I loved seeing him rock it out in his element. Summer school really did suck but it was ok because I still got to hang out with friends. And the summer ended out with a bang. I literally saw some of the same Crusade people for the 5 days in a row up until school started. I really can't think of anyone better to spend time with. Those crusaders are quality people, that's for sure.




Quote of the post:

Ships in harbor are sae, but that's not what ships are made for.

First Year of College

Ok so my first year was like a freaking roller coaster like no other. I mean it started out crappy, which in my mind was what started the downhill part of the ride. I think if the year started out really well, then maybe the year would have turned out ok. But of course things couldn't work out that way. But in spite of all the bad that happened...so much good happened as well and to me, it kind of countered out the bad. And what was so good about last year? Four words. Campus Crusade for Christ. I can't even begin to imagine what my school year would have been like if I hadn't met all my friends from Crusade. I seriously can't believe how many great friendships I've made in just a short while. I even met one of my best friends, and without him, I'm not sure how I'd make it day to day. So although my teachers could have been better, grades could have been better, and life could have been better, it didn't really matter to me since I knew I had all my new friends on my side and I definitely feel as though I've definitely been having a closer relationship with God because of Crusade.






Quote of the post:

There are no wrong choice; there are only different choices.

I promise...

I'll update in like a week.....it will be different this time...I'll try to continue with a quote of each post but I will probably not add "future posts" just because...well I can't predict the future!!! Anyways, if you want to know about any of the posts that I didn't post, just let me know and I'd be happy to tell you!!! Hope everyone had an awesome summer!

Easter Basket

So tonight, at around 8:30ish, there was a knock on my door ::knock knock knock::, then I heard foot steps running down the stairs ::stomp stomp stomp:: I hurried to the door and when I opened it there was no one there! ::gasp::!!! I looked down and at my feet there was a very lovely Easter basket! I picked it up and placed it inside. At that moment I heard a door slam ::slam!:: and an engine start ::vroom vroom!:: so I ran down the stairs ::stomp stomp stomp:: and I ran out to the cars. I looked to my right, nothing, then I looked to my left and bingo! (was his name-o!) I saw a car driving off in the distance. I couldn't recognize it, it was kind of small and had a sort of bike rack on the top. So I ran back up the stairs ::clomp clomp clomp:: and I checked to see if there was a card or something in the basket. Nothing. I don't even know if the basket is for me or for my roommate! This basket is such a blessing though! I've been having an off night and this totally made it better! And my roommate has been wanting M&Ms and inside are M&Ms!!! So if you're reading this and you were the deliverer of this wonderful Easter basket...THANK YOU!!

::applause applause applause::


HAPPY EASTER!!!!

Can You Hear Me?

Can you hear me? I'm calling out to you.
Do you think about me? I'm thinking of you.
Where did we go wrong?
Tell me, what did I do to deserve all this?
Why can't bygones be bygones, the past be in the past?
Can we ever move on from this?
It can't go back to the way it was.
But why?
Why can't you change?
I changed for you, I concealed my beliefs for you.
Why can't you change for me?
Does all we went through not matter anymore?
Best is just an adjective if it has no meaning.
We're moving in the same direction, I'm just moving faster.
It's not my fault.
Can't you see I'm hurting?
Why did you shut me out?
I need you still but I need you to take a step back.
Why can't you see what you did to me?
What made you think you had the right to bring me down?
You held me in your hands and you crushed my spirit.
If I couldn' run to you, where could I run?
You took all I had from me.
I gave you all the love I had.
Can you hear me? I'm calling out to you.
Do you think about me? I'm thinking of you.

My Daily Reminder

You're gonna fly, with every dream you chase
You're gonna cry, but know that, that's ok
Sometimes life's not fair, but if you just hang in there
You're gonna see, that sometimes bad is good
We just have to believe, things work out like they should
Life has no guarantees, but always loved you'll be...

Lucky Number 7

Here we are folks...end of week 7. It was exciting for me because a lot of people had midterms and I don't have a midterm until right before Spring Break. So here's my weekly update.

Sunday...I went to Vanguard University to attend church at Newport Mesa. I went to visit my old youth pastor and then we went to Huntington Beach for lunch. It was really nice to see him again, the last time I saw him was in June. Then that night I went to Chain Reaction to see Richard...Goodbye Luna...play and let me tell you, he was absolutely AMAZING! Last Crusade is definitely my favorite song of his.

Monday...I went to class as normal, nothing too special there. Then at night I went to Dorm Revival, that was fun, as usual. I really like going to Dorm Revival. Then afterwards the boys had a football game so we all went to cheer them on. I was so excited because they said I could be their coach!!! It's so exciting! I love being the coach!!!

Tuesday...I didn't have to go to work because they had testing so the schedule was all off and stuff. So I stayed home and did about 6 hours of psychology notes. It was horrible, I never want to have to do that again. Then I moved some stuff around in our apartment to make room for my desk.

Wednesday...Class as usual, but in one of them we started talking about voids in our lives and it got me thinking and I ended up texting Ryan to talk to him about it. Then in Acting class I got the scene I have to work on and I am SO excited!!! It's so much fun! Then I left my Costume class early so that I could talk with Ryan in person, I think it helped some, and if it didn't it's really nice to know he's there for me to talk to. I think he's going to become my new "go to" person when I need to talk. Then I got another nametag! I was so excited. I also made a coffee date with Eleanor, except we're not going for coffee so I'm not sure how that will work out. I was so sad though because the boys want to play football against the girls and I was told that if I played for the girls I can't be the coach for the boys anymore, but then Brett said if I drive him to San Diego for Nat's show then I can stay the coach.

Thursday...I went to work and there was a substitute so the kids we out of control. 1st and 2nd period I could handle...even though I did have to give a kind of sex talk which I'm not sure I was allowed to. 7th period was rough though. I left my other school early so I could get the groups in order, but it was just ridiculous. I put them in groups and they just take their papers and join any group they want. I actually yelled at the kids and I never yell, I hate to even raise my voice. On a plus side though, our cable works now!! More sad news though was that I had to take my roomie to the train station. This has been my first time staying at our new apartment without her.

Friday...I went to class, then I spotted Ryan on his skateboard (it's easy to spot the tall red headed kids) and he came over to my old apartment to help me move. While we were there Richard called and said he and Nat would come over. So while Ryan and I waited we had another heart to heart, except this time I was the listener. Then we moved over my desk, dresser, and books. I'm really excited to have the rest of my stuff over. Now I'm waiting for the girls to come over because the Bible Study has been moved to my place for the night. And then hopefully people will stay and more will come for a movie night.

Saturday...I'm going over to my old apartment to clean and then I'm meeting up with Eleanor for our date and then we're heading over to the school to meet for the carpool up to Pasadena to the LA Metro Night of Worship. AJ is leading it so I'm quite excited.

Sunday...I'm headed down to San Diego with Brett to go to Nat's show. I'm stopping on the way to my brother's apartment to give him Richard and Nat's demos. Then it's off to the show!!


And somewhere in between all that I will do the crap load of homework I have. Whooo!!!


Future Posts:
*Apartments
*Jobs
*Randomness of me
*Traffic
*Growing Up
*Crying
*Blast from the Past
(I know there's a lot to write about but I'll get to them all, I promise.)


Quote:
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on."
~Robert Frost

Men of God

Last night I came up with this topic and I really wanted to write and just now had time...dang psychology class!

ANYWAYS...

At Dorm Revival I was looking around our group and I noticed that there was a lot more guys there than girls. For some reason I thought that was kind of odd. I'm not sure why. In my high school youth group there seemed to be more girls but in my college group there are more guys, not a lot more though. I just really like seeing that there are a lot of men of God out there. Whenever I went with my youth group down to Mexico the guys would form a soccer team and would then go to a field and start playing and find others to play with. The point of this was that a lot of the men down there think it is not "manly" to be a Christian. So our guys get rough and rowdy and dirty and smelly and show them that Christian guys are just as manly as non-believers...if not more in some instances. I guess I just think of that so much whenever I think of the guys at my church or at Campus Crusade. In most of my other groups or classes, it is usually female driven, but I do like the fact that there are so many guys that are believers. Now don't get me wrong, there are a lot of girls to, but I don't know, I'm just fond of guys, what can I say, and I like knowing there are a lot of good guys in the world.
Although, it seems nowadays there are 10 not so good guys for every good guy.

Future Posts:
*Apartments
*Jobs
*Randomness of me
*Traffic
*Guarding the heart/ defining moment
*Growing Up
*Crying
*Blast from the Past
(I know there's a lot to write about but I'll get to them all, I promise.)


Quote:
"When you dwell on the past, you let go of the future"

And the Rockets Red Glare..

This morning at 9:00 I stood in a line along with Ryan and a whole bunch of other people all hoping to be picked. You see, today was the National Anthem Auditions for the Rancho Cucamonga Quakes. I got there right on time but there were already tons of people anxiously waiting their turn. There were a lot of talented people and also a lot of untalented people. It was very windy and the wait was long. I was getting very anxious and nervous the longer I waited but I just kept reminding myself that I could do it and that I am a good singer. When it was almost my turn I was more concerned about what city I would say I am from. San Diego? Temecula? Fullerton? I finally decided on Fullerton since that is what it says on my registration form. When it came time for me to go up, I walked to the judges with a smile on my face, walked up the stairs to the stage, grabbed the microphone, and sang my heart out. I think I did well, it's hard to judge when you are up there singing. I don't think I sang it in the key that I practiced but that's ok, I did hit the "free" note so that was nice. I felt really confident on the stage, like I felt comfortable, but then again I always feel comfortable on stages. My voice didn't quiver at all so that was a relief. Ryan gave me an 8 out of 10 and said he thinks I could get picked. I hope so. They pick about 70 people, so I hope I'm one of them. I won't know until March 30th so it's going to be a long wait, but I'll manage. If I don't get it though, I'll just keep trying, I've decided that one audition won't keep me down.


oh yea, the mascot After Shock gave me a shoulder massage, and I'm not going to lie...it was nice.

6 down 17 to go

Another week of school down. It's actually going pretty fast but I am just so tired of school. Let's recap this week. On Monday I had to attend all my classes but they weren't so bad, except for my acting class. I had to do an autobiography and I decided I'd sing for them since singing is a big part of me (I also talked about my faith) but when it came time to actually singing I was way nervous and my voice quivered the whole time. But oh well it didn't ruin my day. Then I had Dorm Revival and that was fun as always, we talked about rest and I realize how much I need that. Then afterwards Nat, Ryan, Richard and I sat around talking about my auditions and I got lectured for being too nervous, but it's ok because Nat and Ryan think I am good enough to make it and so if they believe in me I think I'll be ok. As we were leaving though Nat, Ryan, and myself got into my car I started it up went to move it from Park to Reverse and it wouldn't move. It was completely stuck. So we had to call my best friend AAA and they came out, couldn't fix it or tow it since they couldn't move it to neutral and then they left. So Nat called his roommate to come take us home and yea, it kind of sucked. Then on Tuesday I had my roommate drive me to my car and I called AAA and they came and manually moved the shifter and so I drove it to the mechanic across the street and dropped my car off. The guy told me it would take like 2-3 hours to fix so I walked around for a bit before walking to school where I met up with Cassie my roommate, saw some ducks, and then later had lunch with some crusade people. 4 hours later I finally got the call that my baby was fixed. It was a long day and I missed a day of work but oh well. On Wednesday I decided to treat myself to some sleep and so I skipped my first two classes and slept in. Then I went to my acting class. Afterwards I walked around trying to find something to do, I called my mom and while on the phone I saw Richard so we talked for awhile and he played me part of a new song, it's really good. Then he went to class so I went to talk to Jen until Campus Crusade started. I had decideded to skip costume class so I could go to the meeting because Kyle the emcee from Winter Conference was speaking. I was really excited to get a nametag for once. Then I went to the old apartments to try and pack but we ran out of boxes. On Thursday I had work and after killing an hour at the mall I went to AJ's apartment so that he could help me with my audition, both he and Mike seem to think I have what it takes, so that has given me more encouragement as well, I just need to remember to sing it in the key of G not F. Then after work I went to the old apartments to finish packing and I tried to vacuum but it started to smell like it was burning so I stopped and came home. Then today, I went to class, went to the grocery store to buy more stuff for my throat then came home. After a nice lunch I took a nap for 2 1/2 hours before Ryan woke me up. Then I tried to drink water while laying down and I ended up spilling water all over my face and up my nose, it was horrible. So that's been my week. Nothing too special. This weekend though is going to be intense. Tomorrow morning I have my National Anthem auditions, I'm very nervous but I think it should be fine. Then right after that I'm heading up to San Bernadino to watch my other friend Ryan at his race. I'm kind of scared to do that though, because if he crashes or gets hurt again I'll be very sad. Then that night I am going to go see Richard III with Amy Grace and AJ. On Sunday I am going down to Costa Mesa to attend my old youth pastor's church and hang out with him and his family. And then that night I am going to Chain Reaction to see Richard, I mean Goodbye Luna play! I'm very excited, Richard is quite the talented guy and I really want to see the other Crusaders backing him up. So that is what is going on. Thanks for reading!


Future Posts:
*Apartments
*Jobs
*Randomness of me
*Traffic
*Guarding the heart/ defining moment
*Growing Up
*Crying
*Blast from the Past
(I know there's a lot to write about but I'll get to them all, I promise.)


Quote:
"It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives"