Week Three

So I just realized that it is the end of yet another school week. It actually went by pretty quick. Nothing too eventful really happened, but we'll recap anyways.
Monday: I didn't have costume class so it was nice being able to come straight home at 11 and have a five hour break before my next class. However my 4:00 class was disastrous since I didn't know we had anything to turn in. But oh well. Then I hung out with Nat and Michelle in Nat's dorm and we played cards before heading down to Dorm Revival. We played a game at Dorm Revival but I wasn't a fan because it involved running around people and trying to catch or not be caught. And I fall a lot so I wasn't a fan. Then I told my small group a story that I rarely ever tell people and I was very shocked with myself for saying it since it is somewhat personal. But oh well, what's done has been done. Afterwards we went to our normal hang out spot and I made it to Chipotle 5 minutes before it closed. I was happy.
Tuesday: I had work and it was a new semester for them and I had to work with some new kids and it was pretty intimidating. But I survived. Then on my break I went to the library and checked out some movies. I've watched two so far and have to watch the other three before Tuesday. Let's see, what else did I do. Oh yea, I cut out a coupon for free Golden Spoon and then I used it.
Wednesday: I had class and campus crusade which is always fun. I read a lot from the book Ryan had loaned me. I was able to get through it a lot when I walked to school so it was cool. Then Merrilee drove me home and then me and my roommates went to Costco. I had a lot of energy because some smart person gave me caffeine. But yea it was a lot of fun. Then my roomie Cassie made us dinner and then after that my roommate Amy and I went on a hunt for dessert. Then we all sat and watched Never Been Kissed and ate Ben and Jerry's.
Thursday: I skipped work because I was just so tired and could not get my self out of bed. And it was lucky because when I called the teacher I work for my voice just happened to be dead so she just assumed I was sick and I just went along with it. Then at noon I went to watch Richard perform at the TSU Pub and let me tell you, he was absolutely AMAZING! But yea, then I went home and finished the book I was reading.
Friday: I went to my first two classes but skipped my acting class because my mom was coming up at 11 and I needed to clean and I wouldn't have been able to if I went to class. Then my mom, Cassie, and myself went to our new apartment to sign the lease and pay the rest of our deposit. So we are pretty much set and it is very exciting. Later we dropped Cass off and my mom and I went to CPK for lunch. It was yummy, Then she took me shopping at Target and we purchased some essentials for the apartment and also socks. Then I took a nap and woke up just in time for the girls Bible study at Amy Grace and Merrilee's apartment. It was nice not having to drive somewhere for once, all I had to do was just walk around the pool and then BAM! there I was!. It was a really good session. Then we had our movie night and watched a very interesting movie called The Big Picture. It was weird but it wasn't half bad. Then we just sat around talking till about, well now!
Saturday: I plan on going down to Temecula and that night I think we are having a family dinner of some sort.
Sunday: Church at Rancho for the first time in a while and then I'll probably make a surprise appearance at the Pointe before heading up to Fullerton to attend the carpool to Rock Harbor.

Eventful, I know. I wonder what the next week has in store for me!!!


*Too tired to posts the future posts, I'll put them back up tomorrow!

Waiting on the World to Change

"It's hard to beat the system when we're standing at distance, so we keep waiting, waiting, waiting on the world to change". I really like that song. I just finished reading a book called Under the Overpass. It was an amazing story. It was written by Mike Yankoski and he writes about his experience of living on the streets for five months. He chose to do this because he wanted, needed to know if his faith in God was real. To see if he could uphold his morals and spiritual lifestyle without the comforts he's known all his life. His story to me was just so inspiring. I don't know what Ryan was thinking when he loaned me the book because now my mind is telling me "hey! you can do that too!" I love helping others and I would give up the comforts of life to bring myself down to their level. People are people no matter what their situation. That's partly what I'm going to do when I finally make it down to Mexico. I'll be giving up my comfy lifestyle in order to serve God's purpose. One thing I couldn't believe when I was reading this book was that, when Mike and his traveling buddy Sam would go by churches to sleep or to read their Bibles or just to attend service, they were treated with anything but kindness. One church seemed so unwelcoming by its outward appearance that they didn't even want to try it. It just seems so weird to me. We as Christians proclaim that we are always willing to help and love one another but how is it when we are faced with people we are uncomfortable around. Just because people might smell and be dirty or have no home or have lived a rough lifestyle, does that mean they don't deserve to be loved? That makes no sense to me. But maybe that is just because I love to help people and would be willing to go out of my comfort zone to help others. In regards to the John Mayer song that inspired the title and opening line of this post, I love the song, but rather than waiting for the world to change, I want to change the world.

"Then Jesus said to his disciples, 'If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.'" - Matthew 16: 24-25



Future Posts:
*Apartments
*Jobs
*Randomness of me
*Traffic
*Guarding the heart/ defining moment
*National Anthem
*Inner core
*Singing
*Growing Up
*Crying
*Blast from the Past
*Semi-Trucks
(I know there's a lot to write about but I'll get to them all, I promise.)


Quote:
"To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose, the next best."
~William M. Thackeray

Frustration

I'm so frustrated right now. How foolish it was to think I could just cut him out of my life with no further conflict. That was dumb. I just wish this was all over now so I can continue my life. I've been so happy lately, but now it feels like it's going down the drain. I wish I had my talking buddy back but now I'm left without. I just need someone to talk to very badly. Just someone who I can pour out my heart with and cry with or just to sit with. Things need to get better, I can't let him bring me down again.

What Are You Worrying For?

This past Sunday at Rock Harbor they spoke to us about our worries. How we all have something we are worried about. Towards the end of the service, we were told to write down everything we were worried about on one side of the paper. My side was quickly filled up and I discovered that I had many worries, some material, some emotional, and some spiritual. Then, on the other side of the paper we were to write what we felt would take care of our worries. I had a few of those, just thoughts on what I think would make my life fulfilling and carefree. Then we turned in our papers and as we sang a worship song they brought up these big hands onto the stage representing the hands of Jesus and then the leaders poured out all our our worries in front of the hands. Just watching all of that happen impacted me very much. It made me realize that I do worry a lot when I really shouldn't. If I just look to our Lord for guidance, my worries will be ceased. However, I know that no matter how much I do believe that, and I do believe that, I will always worry, as I know just about everyone does. Here's some Bible verses I found that lend some comfort and guidance when it comes to worrying.

"Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Jesus Christ." ~Philippians 4: 6-7

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." ~Matthew 6: 34

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." ~Psalm 23: 4

"Cast your burden upon the Lord and He will sustain you: He will never allow the righteous to be shaken" ~Psalm 55:22

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." ~Proverbs 3: 5-6

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is life not more important than food and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life." ~Matthew 6: 25-27

"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." ~1 Peter 5:7


Future Posts:
*Apartments
*Jobs
*Randomness of me
*Traffic
*Guarding the heart/ defining moment
*National Anthem
*Inner core
*Singing
*Growing Up
*Crying
*Blast from the Past
*Semi-Trucks
(I know there's a lot to write about but I'll get to them all, I promise.)


Quote:
"The best way to find out if we had second-class citizens and what their plight was, would be to become one of them."
~ John Howard Griffin

The Heart of a Song

Maybe it's because I am a singer, or maybe it's because I'm strange but I seem to unconciously analyze songs. When I first hear a song I don't just hear it, I listen to it, I let the song wash over me. I listen to the lyrics of the song, I find out what it is the song is trying to say to me. Not just the beat of the song or how it is sung or what genre it is. To me, the lyrics are the heart of any song. I mean other people could feel differently but in my opinion, a song is good if it has good lyrics. I know a lot of people who listen to music because they like the beat but in reality they actually have no idea what is being said in the song. I don't want to write to much on this because well American Idol is on. But when this topic came to mind I thought of two examples, musicals and country. A lot of people dislike country music and well you ask them if they want to hear a musical soundtrack they run for the hills screaming. But for a lot of those songs in those categories they actually have good heartfelt lyrics. Now I know that's not always the case, but you have to give them a chance to find out! Here are two song examples.

For Good- from the musical Wicked

I've heard it said, that people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn and we are led to those
Who help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return
Now I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today, because, I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder half way through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better
But, because I knew you, I have been changed for good
It well may be, that we will never meet again in this lifetime
So let me say before we part, so much of me is made from what I learned from
You'll be with me like a handprint on my heart
And so whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine, by being my friend
Like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better
But, because I knew you, I have been changed for good
And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness for the things I've done you blame me for
But then I guess we know there's blame to share and none of it seems to matter anymore

Anyway- Martina McBride

You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away...Build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way...Dream it anyway
God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
When I pray, it doesn't always turn out like I think it should...but I do it anyway
This world's gone crazy and it's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today...Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart for all the right reasons
And in a moment they can choose to walk away...Love them anyway
God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
When I pray, it doesn't always turn out like I think it should...but I do it anyway
You can pour your soul singing a song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang...Sing it anyway
I sing. I dream. I love.

lyrics to ponder!


*Future Posts*
*Apartments
*Jobs
*Randomness of me
*Traffic
*Guarding the heart/ defining moment
*National Anthem
*Inner core
*Singing
*Growing Up
*Crying
*Blast from the Past
*Semi-Trucks
(I know there's a lot to write about but I'll get to them all, I promise.)

Quote:
"When it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile"

Why me? I mean really.

So here I am, in my three hour political science class. I arrive at class expecting it to go a little less than smoothly but no, it was way more than "less than smoothly". So I haven't been able to access this class on Blackboard so I figured I'd be missing out on some things. I was pretty sure that we had a reading assignment but I didn't know what it was. See, my teacher (who is actually a very nice lady) didn't pass out a syllabus on the first day of class and the way to get it and all our assignments was through Blackboard. Good right? Right. Well as I get to class today, early and somewhat prepared, I find out from my peers that not only did we have to read FOUR chapters, we also had a two-page PAPER to write! I mean this isn't my fault because how was I to know? But still! I even tried to e-mail my teacher like a week and a half ago but the Titan e-mail said it was not a real e-mail address. There really wasn't anything else to do. And then my teacher comes in and says how she e-mailed everyone and stuff and um I never got that e-mail! Like really, I'm the only person. I mean come on now, why me?!

2 Down 14 To Go

Ok I don't really know if there are 16 weeks of school but I'm taking a wild guess. But yes, the end of week 2 is done. It actually seemed to go by pretty quickly. Let's review. Monday I had a pretty excellent day. My morning classes went pretty well and then my monday evening class got cancelled which was pretty awesome since I didn't feel like 3 hours of political science. Then I went to KFC and they actually remembered my mac & cheese AND I got a free chicken strip, how cool is that? Let's see, I mended a friendship that I thought was long gone and so I am very happy about that. And finally I had Dorm Revival and had an amazing evening with amazing people. Then Tuesday, I had work with some cool middle schoolers, I watched the movie If Only and cried my eyes out, then I went back to work, took a nap, and my roommate brought home pizza for the apartment. On Wednesday I decided to sleep in and not go to my 8am Psychology class, and then in Acting class we had to act out a painting and it was quite challenging, then in Costume the teacher let us out early so I was able to attend most of the Campus Crusade meeting. Then at lunch I realized I was dumb and forgot my debit card at home and so I just sat with friends until I went to go chill at the Crusade table at Discoverfest. While at the table I met some nice people from Intervarsity who said they were sorry that we were targeted in the Daily Titan. Then I went home and took a nap and ended the night with a nice phone conversation with my bud Macgyver. Then on Thursday I had work but it was a half day at school so I just stayed the whole time so I actually got more hours than I usually would have. And while we were there this student brought in homemade salsa and oh my gosh, let me tell you, that stuff was HOT!!! Then I came home and went bike shopping with my roommate Amy, but she wouldn't let me test drive one, it was sad. Then she treated me to dinner at El Pollo Loco. It was nice. Then we came home and picked up my other roommate Cassie and we all went to the school to work out. I did a mile on the treadmill and then 4 miles on the cycle thing. I tried a bike but it hurt my bottom too much and so now my butt hurts (not that you wanted to know that or anything). Then we all went to Golden Spoon and watched Grey's Anatomy. Then today, Friday, I managed to get up for class, which was good because we have to take a quiz this weekend and we need a password for it, so if I missed the class I wouldn't have been allowed to take the quiz. Then finally in Acting class we had to get with partners for an open scene and of course I'm with Liz because we're pretty much inseparable. We're really excited for it, ours is going to be the best. And now later today is the first game of the season for CSUF baseball! I'm way excited, even if I am going by myself. Haha just no one else likes baseball! Well some people do but not a lot of my friends.
And this weekend shall be fun. Tomorrow, Saturday, I have open scene rehearsal and then a scavenger hunt with Crusade. And then Sunday I have church and a baseball game. Oh and in between things Cassie and I will go apartment shopping!
Oh yea, and somewhere during this week, I got my Stagecraft final project back. The one I stayed up three nights in a row to finish. Yup, I got a 57% on it. Nice Right?

Future Posts:
*Apartments
*Jobs
*Randomness of me
*Traffic
*Guarding the heart/ defining moment
*Musicals
*National Anthem
*Inner core
*Singing
*Growing Up
*Crying
*Blast from the Past
*Semi-Trucks
(I know there's a lot to write about but I'll get to them all, I promise.)

Quote:
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter"
~Dr. Seuss